04 July 2015

33.

At the end of last month I celebrated my birthday with a lovely jaunt up to Vermont with my boys. And in turning 33 I wanted to write down a few observations and thoughts.  Really, this was maybe my most favorite year yet (which I'm aware I say every year). I feel like 32 has been full of so much personal growth and change. I feel settled in our house (thank you new blue kitchen), we welcomed our newest family member (yay for Huck!), we had to say goodbye to our beloved dog (love you Lunabug), and along the way I think I cooked some good food, made some great friends and got to do it all with my favourite person, Matt. 

So here's what I've learned, at 32:

In order to succeed, you need your team. It takes a long time to build one, believe me. These are the ones you never have to second guess yourself around, the people who know all the shitty parts of your weird self and love you all the same. Find these people. Keep them close. Cultivate those relationships. And it's okay to have all the other types of friends too. But one of the biggest things I've learned is that not everyone will be on your team, and trying to fit every person in your life does not work. Stop doing it. Save your best energy for the people closest to you. 

Also, none of this shit matters. Seriously, it doesn't. The only thing that matters is that you wake up in the morning and you feel like you're doing a good job at being a good human being. That you're being the best wife you can be, the best Mom, the best sister, daughter, friend, whatever, and doing every single thing in your life with kindness and love. That's it. Anything else- what someone thinks about you, all of the little things you worry about, random stuff that pops into your mind and doesn't go away- it doesn't matter. You want love? Be love. You want light? Be light. Be what you want to see, and you will see more of exactly that.

The biggest thing that I gained during my 32nd year though, was a much deeper self-acceptance. It feels good to be ME, in all of my silly, nerdy, happy, too-sappy, sometimes flippant, adventurous, emotional, mercurial glory. And to feel so excited about other people being THEM. 


And so 32, you were fantastic. I look back with my rose-colored glasses and even though I see the bad, hard, sometimes frustrating stuff, I am fully aware its all part of it. I don't mind getting older. I love birthdays. Here's to 33!

01 July 2015

26/52

another week, another photo. I have a bunch of photos that I want to compose together for a birthday trip post. Matt took me and all of my boys to Stowe, VT for the weekend. It was grand! We ate ice cream, went for a mini-hike, stumbled across a small music festival and generally just enjoyed a change of scenery. But all of that for another day. For now you can simply be smitten with my two little bugs. Oliver is off from school and camp this week and we have been spending as much time outside as possible. It has been fun exploring and making sure to keep my busy four year old, well busy. p.s. I cannot seem to get his Nutcase helmet to stay put? No matter how tight I make it he always shifts it to the side. Any advice would be grand.  

and then there is this little guy. Oh my goodness, the smiling has begun and it melts me every time.  I feel like I want to take a picture of each and every hammy, gummy little smile. Overall he was a good little traveller on our drive which was very helpful for Matt and I.

 


25 June 2015

25/52

climbing trees...one of my favourite childhood activities.

mr. blue eyes. loving his deep blue eyes for now seeing as they will probably morph and change as he gets bigger. 

Summer is here! Huzzah! Oliver has his last day of school today and this weekend Matt has planned a surprise birthday weekend trip for me with all of my boys. I am excited to get away and just a little anxious about how Huck will do but I suppose you have to start traveling at some point. It will be a good trial run in our travel crib before we head to Michigan later in the summer.

more pictures after the jump.

first day/last day

first day of school, 2014

last day of school, 2015

I would say it is not as drastic of a physical change as it has been in the past but Oliver certainly has accomplished a ton this year in school.  He started his year at Evergreen preschool and ended his year at Tobin Montessori as an "MK" (we call is mini-kindergarten). So even with switching school environments and friends Oliver has flourished. He can proficiently write his own name and can write words when spelled out letter by letter. He is learning how to stretch words to sound them out and he generally shows a passion for books and I know that reading is not too far off. He loves school. He loves his buddies and I am thrilled that he is in an environment which embraces his love of books, Batman, games, recess and friends. 

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2015

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22 June 2015

baseball.

This summer marked Oliver's first experience with baseball or rather t-ball. He was on the KC royals primarily because it was the "blue" team. His buddy, Nathan was on the same team and they had a ball learning the ropes. It was mostly a boy event meaning that Matt generally took him and then I would meet up with them at swim class (our Saturdays were a bit busy). All in all it was a fun filled experience so click through for a whole bunch of photos documenting his baseball experience. 


buddies. 

my son is the goofy one. 





eye on the ball!


ready...

swing...

follow through...


run!!





18 June 2015

24/52


another week and I'm trying to get some better shots of both boys. but this week it is an iphone photo week. I have a whole second post about t-ball with some great shots that Matt took but I will get to those on another day. we are rounding the bend of the school year and although I am excited for Oliver to wrap up his year I have really enjoyed knowing his schedule day to day. He is doing a bit of summer camp and I am looking forward to some beach excursions and playing at the park with friends but I know the adjustment to having a lot of his day filled with activities to a lesser packed day will be a bit bumpy at times. Oliver is a total busy body and thrives on activities and routine (ahem...his father's child in that way). 

and then there is this guy! Huck is a good baby and we are trying to stay optimistic with his sleeping abilities. I had to go out and buy a breathable bumper because he is spinning himself around like a sundial at night and this morning got his little legs stuck between the slats of the crib...can I remind you that he is only 5 weeks old! yikes.  

it helps when you make that face, Oliver! oh and ps. he calls the binky a sucker. love him. 

Oliver continues to be a great big brother and all of the push back seems to be resting on his parent's shoulders which I suppose is far better that being resentful towards Huck. But his moods have been magnified. Good is great and bad is terrible. Dinnertime is an especially trying time of the evening and you throw in the fact that he is the world's slowest eater and you can see why some nights I just want to give in and feed him hotdogs every night!

we have also been getting a few awake smiles and smirks. I feel like I should have my camera glued on Huck so as to catch the elusive smile but they very sweet and there is something visceral about seeing your baby smile. It makes me immeasurable happy. Also he occasionally laughs in his sleep which is awesome. 

10 June 2015

23/52

Happy bug at his school tea party. The kiddos were all so proud of the hard work they put into setting up the party, baking the treats and reciting the poems. It was a really fun morning and plus look at my cheeky boy, he looked so handsome in his dapper outfit. 

Mini man in the most fitting shirt he owns. Huck is starting to get on a glimmer of a schedule which is nice. The one thing that makes him super mad is, you guessed it being hungry! He has been sleeping in his own crib in his own room so his rampant sleep noises are further afield which is nice for everyone's sleep. 

me and my two bugs. 



breakfast date with Batman.

lots of intense toddler conversations these days.  

flying super-mega-wicked high at the park.  

random niceties around town.